About this blog

On top of the world after hiking a mountain in upstate New York, right before my world fell apart. 

Welcome to my blog!

My closest friends call me Anna. I grew up in the country, and am a nature gal. I love hiking, camping, and sitting on my back lawn on summer nights listening to crickets and cicadas. I love the smell of fresh cut grass, old tents, old attics and old books. I enjoy drawing, playing piano, and writing poetry. I'm interested in stepping outside of myself and experiencing as much of the world as possible. Living through the eyes of other cultures through travel or reading, stepping into the minds and experiences of others.

I used to teach in a gifted and talented first grade in inner city NYC. I loved it. I thought I was on top of the world... I had worked by the skin of my teeth so hard to finally achieve and tick off the "normal" boxes, such as getting my degree, my dream teaching job, my own apartment, my masters degree, and a great boyfriend. The next step was settling down and maybe starting a family?

And that's when everything fell apart. 

You think you can have all your boxes checked, and that your life can't unravel and go in reverse.

But life can sometimes be fragile, and just one little thing caused all the dominoes in my life to cascade in slow motion into a full collapse. 

I thought it was adrenal fatigue, then chronic fatigue. I took a short leave of absence from my job, then a leave for a year, thinking I would return. But I didn't. I lost my health, my boyfriend, my job, my independence, and my family as well.

I found out that I am two different people. I found out that I was living two different lives. I found out that I have dissosociative amnesia from trauma as a child. I found out that I had no memory of anything that I did, said, or that happened to me from childhood. I found out that there are dark memories of abuse that I couldn't cope with or process as a child. That I subconsciously, without knowing it, tucked away in amnesia until I was safe enough as an adult to process. 

But I also discovered that I have the power to transform my life from the inside out. 

It doesn't matter what they did, or how they thought I should fail. 

I am an alchemist, and I have the power to heal and transform my own life. 

I am a phoenix. This mythical bird may look like it's dying, or burning in it's own ashes. But it's actually coming to life again, stronger and more beautiful than before. And that is the inspiration for my blog. 

It's been 16 years since my world shattered. I pulled myself up by the roots and was able to come back to life quite beautifully for about 3 years, and even started teaching again. Then I went under again because it was too stressful, and I underwent another layer of healing even deeper than my first level. 

I'm currently living in the Pacific Northwest with my partner and our fur kids Sparky, Huckleberry and Sunshine. We have a little cabin in the woods, we live a peaceful, harmonious, laid back life here in the country side. 

This is my journey, as it's been unfolding since 2008. 

 

I enjoy getting to know my readers and would love if you wrote to share anything on your mind, or just to say hello!  My email is mimsycally@gmail.com.

May you be touched by a spirit of light and love while reading my blog. Namaste!

 

*Names of family members, friends and acquaintances mentioned in this blog are changed. Even though many of these characters actually want a little time in the public light, I'm giving 'em pseudo names. Hee hee.